Beginning with an ending

There is someone dear to me that I have been friends with for 10+ years. A lot has happened in our friendship over that time, but we always moved on and ahead.

Over a year ago things between us changed even though I fought so hard to make it work. I have reached out several times over the past year to mend our relationship, but there's only so much one person can do. I mean, even if I put in the 99.99% of effort to fix the situation the other person still must give .01% in order for any kind of change to take place.

I've done what I can and I am at peace with it. It is (hopefully)  only a temporary end. I'm letting go and moving forward knowing that I tried and no matter how much I change myself, I cannot change someone else.

- ♥

“It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on.” 
― Nicholas Sparks

A little over 3 years later...

I read posts that I used to have on here. And WOW. So much can change in 3 years. Out of 11 posts I am only keeping the very first. A reminder of how much I've grown and changed I guess.

I don't promise to post everyday or once a week, but I'm going to post as "therapy".

And So It Begins...

I'm not really sure why I'm doing this. My life isnt interesting, and I'm not going to tell any one about this. Maybe this will help me feel better about my crazy life or maybe I'll just write lots of thoughts that no one understands and my boyfriend will find this one day and think he's dating a nutcase, but regardless I will be posting how my days go and what my thoughts are.

Today I started Massage Therapy school. Well technically atleast. I got some of my work done friday night. I'm starting to discover that I'm a nerd at heart even though I will complain about school all day. I stress over it so much but secretly I love it. I'm not sure how I would survive this next year without it. I made a 65 on my ONLY aromatherapy quiz cuz I rushed through it and didnt know all the information. I sat there and wanted to cry after that. (See, nerd!)

I worked for a few hours today; sampling and getting up to date on coupons and making chicken salad sandwiches after lunch. Even though "squeezing" lemons (as the cfa'ers call it, even though it's actually juicing the lemons with a juicer) just about killed me I'm glad for the extra hours and the strength it's helping me build. Just less time I have to spend at the gym and getting worked up in class cuz I'm too weak to do something. I miss my boss alot. She's on a cruise this week but I need her here. I have so much that I want to talk to her about. Sometimes I wish I could just plug myself up to her so she could just download all the information from me instead of me trying to explain complicated situations that dont make any sense.